Reminiscing

I was doing a little reminiscing the other day (I seem to do that a lot lately) and realized that on Feb 17, 2008 I found out that I was pregnant. We were in Red River, NM working on our town home.



The week we were leaving I was SO sick! I had a very bad cold. I even stayed home from work a few days, adding more time to my vacation. Valentines day didn't happen. I was laid out on the coach. I was SO upset because I didn't think I'd be able to enjoy our time in the mountains, but we had already made the plans and we were going. I knew my time of the month was coming up so I was prepared. I slept most of the way to Red River. From here it's about 10 hours. I needed to sleep and get better if I was to do anything.

The day we got there, I was feeling better so we walked to the ski lift. And later that day we went out to dinner. No problems...yet. It wasn't until the 3rd day we were there that I knew something wasn't right. That morning we decided to get a breakfast burrito from a little restaurant. The owner was very surprised to see anybody since the town during the week is pretty lonely. We ordered and sat down. As soon as she started cooking the smell hit my nose and I felt an awful feeling in my stomach. I was immediately nauseous! I've never had that feeling before. Food does NOT make me sick. If you've looked at me, then you'd know food is my friend. I felt SO sick that I walked next door to get away from the smell. I did actually try to eat the burrito but only took 2 bites. Uh oh!!

We walked right to the local store and bought the least expensive test they had there. I was surprsed they had preggo tests. Off we went back to the town house. I didn't know that the best time to take the test is first thing in the am so I just took it. It was positive...barely. The plus sign was very faint so I had my doubts. Stephen is IMMEDIATELY excited but I on the other hand had mixed feelings. I wasn't ready to celebrate. I was sick the rest of the night and planned to go back and buy the more expensive test in the AM.

Naturally I couldn't sleep, I was still kinda "coldish" and now nauseous. We went and bought the test and then tried it out. POSITIVE...sorta. Again the "plus sign" wasn't very strong but it was there. I went ahead and made an appointment with my ob/gyn, who I'd just seen less than a month before. Funny story... I went the the Dr. on Feb 3 for BC. It was my first time to see him and since I didn't have any BC he gave me some samples. I loved my Dr. He was great (as great as an ob/gyn can be), but I didn't start taking them right away. I wanted to see if my cycle was on time. I had been on BC since I was 19!

To continue... We're Pregnant!! OMG! I can't believe it. I am terrified! What now! Is this real? No it can't be real! I'm not suppose to be able to get pregnant. OMG!!! I've been drunk in the last 2 weeks. I've taken lost of cold meds! I'm in denial, happy, scared, excited, fearful, anxious, in shock, in disbelief, and lots of other adjectives I can't think of. Stephen and I fight! I'm not as "happy" as he things I should be. How could I be. The alcohol I've had; the medications I've taken. How have I effected my child. What have I done.

The rest of the week was crappy. I was Sick and on the couch. No skiing and no snowmobiling. I wanted to stay in the bathroom next to my best friend. All I could eat were canned peaches and cucumbers with lime. We had bought all these groceries and Stephen had to eat all of it. He actually did eat about 80%!! My hubby was SO full!

We decided not to tell people until the end of the 1st trimester in case something happened. I was still in denial to be honest.

That's how it all started...And now my life has completely changed!!